24 today. Never would I thought I would be here emotionally, physically, locationally, relationshipy. In some ways I'm happy, in others I'm not. It's silly to think I should have graduated college by now and settled in my dream job, because life is so unpredictable and if there's anything I learned over the years it's the need to live for the moment. I'm still teaching myself everyday to enjoy the little things that become the big things when I look back. I make sure to write down the things that make me happy, and banish the things that don't from my mind. Which isn't always the easiest. Especially at midnight when I'm lying awake wishing I could just fall asleep. I miss the moments when I wasn't sad yet would rather die than go back. I can only appreciate what I have and shouldn't take anything for granted as I have so much good in my life.
"Everyone's unhappy
everyone's ashamed
Well, we all just got caught looking
at someone else's page
Well, nothing ever went
quite exactly as we planned
our ideas held no water
but we used them like a dam."
- Modest Mouse, Missed the Boat
