Wednesday, March 19, 2014

birthday thoughts

24 today. Never would I thought I would be here emotionally, physically, locationally, relationshipy. In some ways I'm happy, in others I'm not. It's silly to think I should have graduated college by now and settled in my dream job, because life is so unpredictable and if there's anything I learned over the years it's the need to live for the moment. I'm still teaching myself everyday to enjoy the little things that become the big things when I look back. I make sure to write down the things that make me happy, and banish the things that don't from my mind. Which isn't always the easiest. Especially at midnight when I'm lying awake wishing I could just fall asleep. I miss the moments when I wasn't sad yet would rather die than go back. I can only appreciate what I have and shouldn't take anything for granted as I have so much good in my life.

"Everyone's unhappy
everyone's ashamed
Well, we all just got caught looking
at someone else's page
Well, nothing ever went
quite exactly as we planned
our ideas held no water
but we used them like a dam."

- Modest Mouse, Missed the Boat

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

i'm going to miss it

as some of you know, I will be dying my hair brown in 8 weeks! :O
I know, it's so sad and it's only because I love change so much that I feel like I need to do something new with my hair.
who knows what I'll end up doing once it's brown and harder to change cause I ain't ever going back to bleach unless it's back to ombre.
let's all mourn the purple and pink hair these next two months.